HonestlyI’mTerrified

I feel so scared right now.

I feel on the edge of I don’t even know what.

I just can’t stop crying at all.

I’m just so tired of all of this.

I really am.

I’m so scared I’ll really do it this time.

Instead of just barely cutting myself I’m scare I’ll actually go further.

Last time I had a cut that was so deep I seen meat.

It was so scary. 

All I could do was sit there and stare at it as the blood flowed.

I’m really scared that I won’t stop next time.

This time.

I just hate it.

I don’t know what to do. 

Maybe I just need to.

Ijustdontfuckingknow.

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY